coffee,music, me and much more!!

As the tittle suggests this post is about many things .No doubt my mind these days is terribly preoccupied with this Entrance Fever tension & this makes me feel dismal.I have literally abandoned writing,blogging reading and this is making me perturbed. All my time ( ok not all but most of it) is spent in studying or making timetable for studying .. for entrance exams.. eeekkksss.... godji godji .. I wish there were atleast 40 hrs in a day so that I could write daily ... read my favourate blogs and comment and read all those books that i bought but never read a single page !!

ok!!no more complaining.. I think as a future manager I gota pickup multitasking skills and better manage my time well. ok so today ... I managed reading some blogs today .... one of them had a very interesting observation on the Coffee Bar Culture in India..

This gentleman rightly pointed out that the coffee bars leave no room for conversations , all thanx to the loud music that they play.

well i guess a coffee bar should be a place where you sit back , relax and enjoy your cup of coffee with your guests in a quiet and serene environment.

I remember, from my own experience ... I literally had to ask my friends to repeat what they say and vice versa because of that Hip Hop deafening music.

one piece of advise for all these Coffee waalas.. oops I mean, coffee bars ....

PLEASE.. decrease the volume of that untolerable music that you play and also please switch over to a better choice of music. We come for coffee not for whisky that u play Disco kinda music...

and yes next time i am surely gona leave a comment about this in their feedback forms, provided I get time from my damn study schedule:'(....

till than i can enjoy a cheaper cup of coffee in my room with the right kind of music :P

end of post... back to books .... :

And Finally... I am back !!

Soooooooooooooooooooooooo much to pen down .....and how do i start ???
welll !!..... to begin with its been a dream come true for me!!! I am back in Delhi and back with a bang !!! heeeehahahaha :D
I have been very lazy and irregular to this dear blog of mine.couldnt really help it .... something or the other kept me busy and I was off the pc for quiet some time.
In short, in the past eventful month my hands were not on the keyboard but the tongue was doing its bit in maintaining my identity of garrulous Gul :">

a quick synopsis of the month that just passed....
was too busy with the gurupurab celebrations.... a week i suppose.. had to sing a shabad( religous hymn)in the gurudwara so that too needed time.
and once the gurupurab got over on the 6th... I dont really remember what was I upto for next two weeks... ya the excitement and mystery of my return was building up and I was tightlipped about this trip of mine as I didnt want this to be a fiasco like the last one.
finally on 16th i came back to Delhi and goodness it took a week to settle.. cleaning, dusting, unpacking, rearranging and what not !
and i am still busy with this safaaee abhiyaan god .. guess I have this phobia of dirt and I just cant stand mess around me.These silly house hold chores literally marred my excitement of meeting up with friends and all those plans that i had chalked out.nevertheless. I did take out time to hang out fr a while with my dear friend and yes most importantly I submitted the Fms application form well in time.
God.. writing those two essays was a Herculean task. took me 2 days to write those 400 words !!!what a shame !! ( i know)
AND NOW .... i have to gear up and get back in form ...its high time to start preparing for these entrances knowing the fact that this was a miraculous god gifted chance and i'd really be a fool to waste such a golden opportunity,
I must say , my faith in God has increased manyfolds... there was a time when i was totally dejected and negative.. wondering that I ll never be able to try fr MBA any more and my folks would get me married off.. but i am really happy about this second chance. I dont know if i ll make it given the fact that i have lost track of all my maths english and LR yet i am positive that i should do much better than last time and will leave no stone unturned...
to conclude.. lots of plans in store for future.. have to work really really hard and smart. also i gota blog about alot more stuff other than me and mba and i sincerely hope that it ll come soon too !!
i am just getting back to my old routine and hopefully i should be regular now onwards .. writing on diverse topics...

( this seems like an incomplete post. blame my laptop for it, i lost half of it while formatting it .. ARGGGGHH )

Random Blah ....

When I started writing here, I had almost promised myself to be regular. Hmmmm.. I am not that bad at keeping promises.Am I?Come on ! I didn't write for 6 days so its ok ??

And as it is I have nothing substantial to write these days.I am quite upset with the way I have been blogging.It's turning out to be a purely self centred blog whereas I had planned to write about so many things like books films,politics , current affairs and nothing is happening right now!!

I guess I am not in the correct frame of mind. well !! When am I ever in my senses?

Anyways, I am still sulking over that cancelled trip to Delhi.But I am still hopeful.Lol :D

Diwali was ok, got a great chance to eat so many mithais and arghhh i have to compensate by exercsing more and more as I have a terrible sweet tooth. Diwali was low profile, as it is mood was off as the plans to celebrate it in delhi got chaupat! Ok,now I have to come out of this festive mood.

Its been a while that I have not read a book or written something new.Too bad ! Dont know whats happening. I dont remember where I kept Robin Sharmas Book.Its high time I finish reading it and yes I have to begin my preparation for MBA entrance exams.Though all my books are in Delhi, I have to brush up my vocab and reading,maths,LR and GK :-(.

(in short EVERYTHING)

I had planned to read extensively on HR too from the web and make notes.God alone knows when will that shubh mahurat come!!

I am getting back to my lazy lethargic mood & lifestyle and I don't want it to happen.

It wont continue for long as I cant risk my future because I know if I lose time I will spoil my own life, no one elses.

Enough for now. Go get a life girl !!!

My 23hrs of Happiness....

I dont know how to start this post... Ummm, I am sad, I am disappointed...

Almost every one who knows me can blindly guess that the greatest piece of good news for me will be my trip to India.And that happend yesterday !!

No, not the trip .. but the plans to go to Delhi ....

Got an unexpected call from family early morning ...

had to rush back to Delhi urgently, got our tickets,shopped on last moment and completed all the travel formalities.in short I was all set for our departure... I guess I was the happiest person on earth yesterday.I was jumping around in joy with excitement.Yup like a monkey.

I had started chalking out my schedule and things to do once I reach Delhi like making surprise calls to friends on arrival and was dreaming of celebrating Diwali there in presence of entire family after 17 years.

and today i think I am the saddest :( person

I dont feel like writing details as I get bugged thinking about my shattered plan:-(. Status quo is that me not going ....

GOD ... I had packed all my stuff and cancelling the trip on last moment was heartbreaking.

My Extreme Bad Luck !!

No Diwali .. no surprise calls .... booooooo :(( mummmyyyy

some one please come with the magic wand ... I wana go .... I wana go..I dont wana unpack my luggage.... :'( (yes,me's crying )

OK .. I Stop now.. I am not a baby , I am not crying any more. Perhaps god really wants something better so he delayed or cancelled this for us .

BUT GodJee , me's waiting in hope!!..... I am in queue, when's my turn ?Thank you for giving me 23hrs(got a call to come to India at 10 am and next day got a call at 9 am not to come) of happiness. but next time please make sure it materializes.

Hmmm ,anyways the purpose of me writing all this is that,I guess I have learnt a few lessons From this Experience.

1.Its not always Good to get so excited. Excess of Everything is bad ..

2.You cant be God AND you dare not try to challenge God.

3.and sometimes(in my case all the times :P) when you really want something to happen .. you have to wait patiently till it finally comes true...

4.And I should learn to control my emotions. I get overwhelmed too fast.

not so good !!

ok .. end of this drama post...lets see when the next chance pops up !! God jiee .... AAP SUN RAHE HO NA?

My Pre-Diwali Outing

Another day has gone. As a pessimist I can say that yet another boring and futile day came to an end and as an optimist (which I am) I can say that I passed another day with hope and faith in the anticipation of good days to come. It is very essential to keep your cool when you are in disdain and most importantly you should never lose the four letter magical mantra spelled Hope.
And yes you should not just sit with hands on hands, doing nothing and say that I am hoping. At least try to work towards a better day.
Ummmm well my post title is diwali outing and what am I writing, LOL. I was building the background for this.
Yesterday I was invited for a Diwali Lunch organized by a ladies kitty club here.
I tried my level best to reach as late as I could. Hehe. I am very averse to attending these kinds of gatherings. Almost every member was double my age and mind you if address them as Aunty; they can kill you for committing such a sacrilege.

Diwali functions organized abroad are a treat for everyone. You get to eat all these home made Indian mithais in wholesale (they are a luxury for Indians abroad)
You get to go out and attend these functions and parties for a week etc. So you have some thing to look forward to in your otherwise staid and low profile lifestyle. Not to forget these dear aunties(ok overgrown girls)get a perfect opportunity to flaunt their riches by showing off their diamonds and designer clothes. (Sorry aunties, If you read this, but I am sure you will never get time to read this, you must be busy socializing, right?)

I loathe attending these parties here. No, don’t presume that I am not an outgoing person or an introvert. I am very garrulous by nature; I can promise you if you’re a normal person, you can have a good time in my company.
But these social parties here…. Damnnnn :(
Actually I am always bombarded with some fixed questions.
Oye Gul beta?? You are still here? When are you going back to Delhi? (arghhhhhhhh I wish I knew too auntyyyy!!)
And what do you do the whole day? Do you cook? You did your last diploma in tele communications na? … uff no, aunty ji Corporate communication !
Oh yea yea… same to same.
Come over sometime beta. (aunty if you are home I surely can come but Mondays and Thursdays you are out for kitty, Tuesday for ladies path … and Wednesday for Cards party… so when should I come??)

Well, I know and I fully understand that this is just a courtesy they extend. I can’t expect aunties to talk about my interests, Right? And it is a rarity that I can ever have a meaningful conversation with some one out there. It’s just a mere hi hello and bye … go die!!
Time gets over saying hi hello to everyone... You spend 2-3 minutes with everyone and its time to eat lunch/dinner and rush back (I am always in a hurry to rush because I never have any motivation to stay longer).

Though I must confess that chatting with different kinds of people is an enlightening experience.I get to learn so much. For example- here the ladies and kids in general are happy and contented in lives, ignorant about soooooo many things and issues that I feel they should be aware of.

On the other hand when i meet some veryyyy knowledgeable scholarly types people, I get a complex.I was better off with that complex man ! I had inspiration and motivation to be as informed as them.But I am yet to meet an inspiring person in town here...

Hmmm! Well, summing up my outing was a good change (not a welcome change though).Played some interesting games and watched the ladies shake a leg on wheres the party tonite. (that was hilarious… shhhh )

If I attend 2-3 more kitty parties as a guest,(mind you I am not a memberrrr!!) I surely will come back pulling my hair!! Sorry I have better things to do!

Dilli ki sardi!!

The weather today reminds me of Delhi :-(… It's getting pleasant and cold here, another fortnight and we will need warmers. And all my woolen stuff is lying back home in Delhi. So does this mean I will go back? :D:D

Hayye I wishhhhhhhhhhh….
Winters in Delhi were great fun. The only nightmare was taking bath. It was merely a formality to bathe in winters. Here be it winters or summers, you cannot take bath in cold water, you just can’t!!Central heating system keeps the house and bathrooms everything warm and cozy, it’s only when you step out that nani yaad aati hai… your nose becomes red like tamaatar and the hand movements are like robots. (ie you only move them if needed …)
Delhi was nothing less too. Though its much much colder here but what makes Delhi winters so intolerable and nani yaad dilaa de types is the fact that we don’t have all those heating facilities and arrangements that we have abroad. Yes you can put those heaters on but you need to have electricity which is a scarcity. LOL
Once me and my friend were commuting in auto rickshaw, it was early December and my goodness! we were literally screaming because that dry cold wind was unbearable. Here we have no autos, all cabs... but anyways here I have no where to go unlike Delhi.

Delhi winters meant – going to Delhi haat, eating pakoras and samosas at home, sipping coffee or tea 5-6 times in a day, eating halwa, rolling your selves in blankets 24x7. It was a torture to getup early morning & getting ready for college… and that damn fog which hampered visibility…
Here we used to go to school be it -5 and in Delhi, the moment temperature drops down to 1 or 2 the government announces off …chalo some respite for otherwise over burdened Delhi school going kids.

Another one month and its fun time in Delhi, with all those small and big time events and shows organized in the malls and cultural centres across the centre. In fact now that diwali and eid are approaching all the markets would be glitzy and decorated.

Over crowded Connaught place, India gate and Bengali market; sigh … sitting here I can just dream and imagine what all is going on there. :-(

Here all I can do is go out to a park if I want to and watch the kids swinging and their moms talking. It will be a treat to watch the snowfall and make snowmen in the garden and throwing snow balls on cars and men like water balloons the way we do it on Holi. Bad manners I know … hehe but I used to do that as a kid not anymore.

Life’s very different here.

The best thing about India is no matter how rich or poor you are, there is still some happiness on your face (at least I think so). Sadly here I feel that all people are living an over stressed and depressing lifestyle. Kissi ke chehre peh khushi nahi hai ….. Hmmm that reminds me of a song is sheher mein har shaks pareshaan sa kyon hai!!

Anyways no two nations can be alike and NOTHING can compete with the uniqueness of India and its people… I miss you India …. !

Mujhse Shaadi Karoge- A letter to my prospective Husband

Well, as I earlier said that I will surely post my writings and poems, its now time to post my imaginary letter to my imaginary husband.

I wrote it about two months back.

And the Man hunt is still on ....mujhe koi jaldi nahi hai, its my family whos religiously pursuing this issue... Goodluck to them !!

here it goes...

My Dear Mr. Would be (husband)…
Hello! Who are you? Where are you? I am sorry I am not going to ask you how you are and get into your health issues… precisely, because I still don’t know you and THIS is the irony of my life... “I don’t know you... Yet your absence plays an important part in my life.”
Now let me get to business. As I earlier asked you... Where are you and who are you? In which part of the planet earth do you exist? What do you do for a living? Are you a doctor? Engineer? Businessman? Lawyer or professor? Ummm any more professions left out…ok... a sportsperson? An accountant? Blah blah blah. Who are you yaar?
Do you have any idea or clue about how eagerly everyone in my family is awaiting your grand entry in their lives? (Actually it should be my life… but they are keener. seems they will be happier than me if and when I get married). In this letter of mine I am beseeching you on their behalf to come quickly and give them some peace of mind. What you are going to read ahead might convince you to do so. So here is my jeremiad.
My parents keep on talking about you very often. They discuss your nature, stature, and looks-vooks. Well all presume you are pretty tall. (It’s but obvious I can’t marry a dwarf… even though even a normal guy would look like Lilliputian standing next to me. God!! Why am I 5feet 10inches short???). They talk about anything and everything about you. In short they look forward to you as the most eligible bachelor!
You really are unaware about the developments here. You indeed don’t know how desperately everyone is, to hunt you down. Be it parents, grandparents, relatives, friends... it seems the whole world is conspiring against you and me to unite. What’s more amusing is the dedicated interest that these aunties take in you. They never forget to remind us that it’s high time I should tie the knot as good guys like you are rare. I presume it’s their birth right to interfere in others lives on pretext of suggestions and advice. All thanks to them, they have given shivers to the entire family with stories of how bad the world is and how we girls are getting carried away by filmy duniya etc etc. and not to forget… the manner in which they terrorize all on my growing age. I wonder is it ever too late to get married?
Talking about grandparents, well I blame the old age and generation gap for their stance. They believe that marriage is the ultimate aim in life and it should happen as soon as possible. Why don’t they get us married when we are born? Now let me warn you a bit.
Come fast... Come as soon as possible.
My granny has many other competitors lined up for you. One is from the US, the others from nearby Canada (Doctor), yesterday she was talking about a wrist watch distributor in Delhi. So you better watch out. I wonder what’s taking you so long to appear. Are you busy with work or girlfriends? Or like me you too think it’s a little early to get married?
Well. Sitting here I all I can do is just presume or suppose the probable cause of your delay in our lives.
But trust me you are sought after big-time here. They enquire about you to anybody possible. They are leaving no stone unturned. My relatives have gone berserk. Every one has their own valid reasons for our early and divine union. Aunties will grab this golden opportunity of buying all those outfits and jewelry that they dreamt of flaunting. Uncles too will have the time of their lives hitting on girls their daughters’ age and boozing as if the excise department will ban liquor after our marriage. My cousins too have gone nuts. All they want is an occasion to dance and tease your sisters (do you have one???)
Are these reasons not adequate and persuasive enough for you to think over and walk into our lives?? Or should I justify my plight too?
Before that let me ask you… do you also face the same wrath at home? Are you not pestered? If you are, then please suggest how you handle them yaar! As I too need some tips badly.
Believe me day by day it’s getting embarrassing for me and I can’t stand it anymore. They make fun of me as if I am the perpetrator for your delay. Have some shame! How can you silently view your wife -to -be in such a state of misery and disdain? See I am being frank and honest to you from the scratch. Why don’t you come out and help me?
You are absolutely ignorant of my mental agony. (Oops don’t deduce that I am mad or a moron. I am not mental but I surely am getting sentimental)
I just want to tell you that just because we both have to get married soon (amen!!!????) (How soon or late even I don’t know... depends on your fateful arrival) no one allows me to do anything. I want to pursue further studies, but your late entry is the hindering cause. They say you are on your way hence I cannot go to college anymore. (Bewakoof!! budhi ho ke shaadi karegi… that’s what I hear when I say I want to do MBA.)
When I say that I want to take music sessions, I am advised I should learn to cook for you (do we get married to cook??). When I say I want to work, they ask me to join them and the only job they assign is to get tea or print a document. I am not permitted to hang out with friends as they might provoke me against you. Just because you too might be attending XYZ s wedding or party, I should dress up to impress you in first glance (hinting that am all ready and available for marriage) and this is not it. Since you might not like a slightly-little over weight (I just need to shed three-four kgs man!!), wheatish complexioned girl (I am tanned); I should diet, diet and die and visit parlors.
Are these reasons not considerable?
Are you still not impressed by me? I have given up my food, education, friends and hobbies for you and you are missing. How do I tell you that each decision pertaining to my future revolves around you? I wonder my hopes and I will die a premature death if you take any longer to arrive and if this is the case, I curse you -you will be me and I will be you in next life (sorry… I am really perturbed).
Can I ask you one more thing? I am sure you too do things that I wouldn’t like or approve but does anyone stop you? No, isn’t it? You indisputably are leading an envious bachelor life then why do I have to suffer? Why should I waste my time speculating your auspicious entry in my life (oops... my life is not my life anyways…u know what I mean?)
And by the way don’t get over attached to your girl friend that you will have to comprise for me. I am not as generous as Preity Zinta to let u go off!! (Sigh! pehele milo toh sahi!!)And I guess I have the requisite confidence to not let you go away. Ha-ha... I am not being pompous; I am just trying to elucidate that it’s high time you meet me! Let’s not play any more hide and seek. If you enjoy the game so much I promise we will play it with our kids. For now I am fed up of being the denner.
Come soon... For anyone’s sake!! Come fast my dreams are getting crushed daily!
Ok now the final word.
Come fast IF you will let me study.
Come fast IF you love music and would allow me to sing.
Come fast IF you respect women for what they are and not preach what they should be or do.
Come fast IF you can guide me to be a better person.
Come fast IF you have an aim and I can support you to attain it.
Come fast IF you too need me and believe that I can standby you through thick and thin.
Come fast IF we are meant to be together… in short come fast IF we can be happily married and help each other realize your, mine and our dreams.

And if not … then BETTER LUCK NEXT TIME!!(As I don’t want my future to be a replica of my present. The present –where life seems futile, uninteresting and each day a burden to live)
Till then take care and enjoy life.
Once again I plead you to come soon. (Subject to conditions mentioned above: P)

Yours Hopefully…..

(P.S- if you are not the one, then kindly circulate this to people whom you think fall under this category and would be interested.)

Dated – till we meet (or I get married to someone else!!)!!